Professional Blues

Even though I work part time, my mind is occupied full time with the stress of my new situation. I've learned to truly appreciate my teaching partner who is now on mat leave. My new partner is difficult...just plain difficult about everything. Our styles are so different. I know my administrator wants to meet and talk about some of these difficulties but I'm not sure what I can say without sounding demeaning. I also need to maintain my professionalism in all this. It's so easy to gossip and tell stories with other teachers. I know God has a purpose in this whole thing....maybe to extend my patience or maybe to learn to love a difficult person. Unfortunately, my devotional life is at a standstill. I need to kickstart it....again....why is it so difficult for me when I know that God's word is my daily food?

We are all sick this week. It's actually slowed us down a little and that's been good. It's been good to just "be". The girls are just playing and resting. I have to decide if Maddie can go to Kindergarten this afternoon. Of course, she wants to . . . I gave her some tylenol so we'll see.

I spent a good portion of my morning responding to school email...it frustrates me that I have to do that on my days off, but I need to keep on top of what is going on in terms of Lucas' observation schedule and my new partners objections to it. I think if she were a parent she would understand that his mom is not trying to make our life difficult, she's just doing her best to help her little boy. I can't judge her for that. I haven't walked in her shoes.