It it Well....

Life seems kind of surreal right now - kind of in slow motion. With my aunt away and my uncle so sick, with the worry of my father in law (He's having a bone marrow biopsy at the hospital on Tuesday) and the inevitable creep towards Christmas....I'm just feeling Weird. That's the only way to describe it. I am praying that this biopsy reveals nothing sinister or something very treatable. I'm feeling extremely behind on my shopping. I'm stumped as to what to get my aunt and my mother in law. I was thinking of taking the girls to one of those paint your own pottery shops and having them make them a cool serving bowl or platter. I'll have to find one. Neither of them really need anything. I've done the gift certificate/ ticketmaster thing a couple times before so I'm trying to think of something different and memorable. Usually I'm set by now, but this year I can't get it together....good thing school lets out early this year. That will give me a full week to tie up loose ends. I just can't get excited this year because my uncle could very likely pass away before Christmas - not that we usually get together, but there will be an air of sadness surrounding that. And then, we need to find out what's going on with my dad-in-law so that we can move on. Hopefully, we can find out soon after the biopsy, so we can rejoice or get on with whatever treatment needs to happen.

Kind of a depressing blog entry as I reread it. I'm feeling all these emotions of anxiety and fear, but it is well with my soul...it really is. That is the amazing gift God gives us. When everything around us is in chaos and our life seems out of control, it can be well deep inside...in our soul. What a gift!